My dilemma today
Let's talk about my dilemma right now.
Today is friday. TGIF.... But not a normal "TGIF" to be said.
It is because of this tuesday is holidayyyyyy.
Some people take day off on monday.
I actually had a plan this saturday to come to my friend's wedding in another city with one of my dear friend. We planned it a long time ago. I just kept it in my mind. But few days ago my dear friend told me that she couldn't come to that wed because she had no budget. She toke days off few days before so I though that she used much money for it. I confused because I may go alone. I don't know the place. I never go there before.
Should I go there alone?
I searched the hotel there. The budget quite much if I come alone haha. Then a Sir here suggest me to stay at one of my friend's dorm there (We are in same company). I thought about it and also asked her. She said yes but I couldn't feel at ease because we are not close enough. I was afraid that she might mind it but she couldn't tell me. I also feel that I'll come in not right and good time. I thought much about it till I post this blog pun.
Surprisingly....
It is hard to believe....
One of my another friend told me that "my dear friend" will also take day off on this monday.
"Don't you wanna go home too? She is going home this friday and take day off on thia monday"
"Really? But she said that she had no budget"
Then I asked her my self and I know that she is really going home.
Why can't she told me the truth.
If she is prefer going to home then go to the wed. I can accept it. I also want to go home but because of our plan I think twice to go home. She said no budget. She never said that she want to go home.
I am upset. I am really upset.
I searched for the ticket to go home. As I imagined that the price is not normal anymore.
I then think, If I phone my parent about my want, I know what my mom will say to me. "Three months later is Lebaran day. So, It's okey to wait". I know she would say that. Then I think again. Okey, It's better if I use the tickets money to share to my dear brothers and sisters. If I go home, I just have two of four days to be at home. I think It's okey..... I think It's Okey. I think It's Okey... But, I really want to go home. I just hate "what if" clause. But I don't know why this "what if" clause come often to my mind today. What if I bought the ticket few days ago? What if I go to home?
Pelase me. Just accept thing. Take responsibility to what you choose. Ok, stop think about going home. Come to work!!!!! Semangat!!! Hamasah!!!!
Today is friday. TGIF.... But not a normal "TGIF" to be said.
It is because of this tuesday is holidayyyyyy.
Some people take day off on monday.
I actually had a plan this saturday to come to my friend's wedding in another city with one of my dear friend. We planned it a long time ago. I just kept it in my mind. But few days ago my dear friend told me that she couldn't come to that wed because she had no budget. She toke days off few days before so I though that she used much money for it. I confused because I may go alone. I don't know the place. I never go there before.
Should I go there alone?
I searched the hotel there. The budget quite much if I come alone haha. Then a Sir here suggest me to stay at one of my friend's dorm there (We are in same company). I thought about it and also asked her. She said yes but I couldn't feel at ease because we are not close enough. I was afraid that she might mind it but she couldn't tell me. I also feel that I'll come in not right and good time. I thought much about it till I post this blog pun.
Surprisingly....
It is hard to believe....
One of my another friend told me that "my dear friend" will also take day off on this monday.
"Don't you wanna go home too? She is going home this friday and take day off on thia monday"
"Really? But she said that she had no budget"
Then I asked her my self and I know that she is really going home.
Why can't she told me the truth.
If she is prefer going to home then go to the wed. I can accept it. I also want to go home but because of our plan I think twice to go home. She said no budget. She never said that she want to go home.
I am upset. I am really upset.
I searched for the ticket to go home. As I imagined that the price is not normal anymore.
I then think, If I phone my parent about my want, I know what my mom will say to me. "Three months later is Lebaran day. So, It's okey to wait". I know she would say that. Then I think again. Okey, It's better if I use the tickets money to share to my dear brothers and sisters. If I go home, I just have two of four days to be at home. I think It's okey..... I think It's Okey. I think It's Okey... But, I really want to go home. I just hate "what if" clause. But I don't know why this "what if" clause come often to my mind today. What if I bought the ticket few days ago? What if I go to home?
Pelase me. Just accept thing. Take responsibility to what you choose. Ok, stop think about going home. Come to work!!!!! Semangat!!! Hamasah!!!!
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